Feeling Blue

Rain is coming and I'm trying to walk away from rain.I hope I'd get to my place before it's actually rain because I don't wanna get sick even though I already am.

While walking back with my heavy brain that contain with a lot of things, my own things and also others.This thought is pop up like "I always hope and try to do my best in whatever I do but I don't know what happened ! I can't do it :( this is just sad.I know we have our second chance we always do.Then I try to prepare for another chance but this time my body is just so weak.I'm not strong like I used to anymore. Sometime I felt so jealous to the one who born with a very special and talented plus intelligence brain.They don't have even try hard to achieve what they want.On the other hand , I'm doing everything to get it but no.However,I never feel any regret in what I actually born to be.I normally confident in myself and proud of myself but when all the things just come up at the same time and I can't really spend much time do neither if them and it turn out not the way I wanted and I can't help it but sad. Everything I do these day not only for submitted to God, for high expected to my parents but also for myself. What if I disappointed them? now I am facing a really tough time.SO DEPRESS,SO STRESS and feeling CRYING without stopping.

I'm kinda lost in the rain and nothing can pull me out except my strong legs to walk pass through this but you know what? it used to be my only hope but not anymore.My legs aren't feel anything at all and then how am I gonna get out of this.How?please tell me how.